at the beginning with you
//
Sunday, December 26, 2010 ( 8:54 PM )
hmph //
( 8:33 PM )
It's my sister's birthday. Um. Ruth's one lar. Haven't gotten her a present. >< Hmm... Once I get my allowance bah?? In the meantime, Rachel and I are trying to co-operate long enough to write a song for her before she gets home. So far, we're failing because I'm glued to the com. xD Heh. Gosh I'm a little pissed. :X My iPod's spoilt. And I'm dying!!!! T-T That's why I haven't been signing into fb and all that. SIGH. AND POKE POKE POKE YOU BACK WEN ZHEN!! I miss Valerie and Jolene like shit. D; I've got CCA tomorrow and G2 BBQ on Tues. Think I might invite Stephanie and Joy? HAHA!! Oh and Rachel too! But I'm not sure if can invite friends... SIGH. I go ask Jie ba. I think I should go finish the song too. :\ MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY~!!
DAY 2 - Famous Person //
Monday, December 13, 2010 ( 1:39 AM )
Today(tecnically, yesterday) is/was the first day of church camp. I missed out. ); Sigh. Well, I'm kinda happy I didn't go; because if I did, I'd have to face him. I suppose that's the point of the 30 day challenge but still. ._______. OH I'M SO HAPPY RAJ MADE IT INTO THE FINALS FOR BLA2!!!! xDDDD Oh and Mel B's younger daughter is SOOOOO fucking cute!!!! >o< Anyways, back to the challenge. ;)
Well, in Primary School, I was compared to Rebecca Loos the lesbo but ONLY BECAUSE of the name. Yeah that's about all. O: Hahahahahhahaha!! Sorry my Day 2 challenge isn't as exciting as you expected but still. :D
Oh well. This stinky girl's gonna bathe and daydream somemore.
TMNP~Labels: famous person compared
SICKENING BITCH //
( 1:17 AM )
YOU FUCKING SCREWED BRAINLESS PIG. YOU ALWAYS TAKE ME FOR GRANTED HUH?! ALWAYS IGNORE ME AND ONLY TALK TO ME WHEN YOU NEED SOMETHING. FUCK OFF CAN?! YOU THINK YOU SO PRO ARH?! PSLE CAN'T EVEN BEAT ME STILL DARE CALL ME STUPID. _|_
CAN YOU EVEN REMEMBER ALL THOSE TIMES I STOOD BY YOU AND SUPPORTED YOU. I PUSHED ALL MY FRIENDS ASIDE JUST SO YOU WOULDN'T BE ALONE. YOU WERE THE 1ST PERSON I EVER BEGGED. YOU WERE THE 1ST PERSON I CRIED IN FRONT OF. I FUCKING SACRIFICE MYSELF FOR YOU AND KEEP SAVING YOUR ASS. YOU FUCKING TAKE ALL THESE FOR GRANTED.
YOU ALWAYS MAKE ME PUT YOUR NEEDS BEFORE MY OWN. INSTEAD OF FINDING MY FRIENDS JUST NOW I RAN TO THE TOILET TO HELP YOU. INSTEAD OF JUST SECRETLY GOING OUT WITH MY FRIENDS I STAYED AT HOME TO TAKE CARE OF YOU. I SACRIFICED MY TIME TO HELP YOU MAKE A FUCKING BLOG WHICH YOU COMPLETELY THREW ASIDE. I TOOK MY TIME AND RISKED MUMMY BANNING ME FROM COM BY HELPING YOU WITH YOUR YOUTUBE TEMPLATE.
I THINK I CAN SUMMARIZE THIS POST IN ONE EXPRESSION: _|_
DAY 1 - Crush & Reason //
Saturday, December 11, 2010 ( 12:44 AM )
This is gonna be a hard thing to do... :X Hmm. I don't think I will say his whole name lar but I'll leave some blanks. :\ Just hope that nobody misinterprets it. ><
PERSON I LIKE: J_ _ _ _ _O_
WHY I LIKE HIM: Because he's a pig like me. Because he doesn't really like Science and Chinese like me. Because he replies SMS-es quickly. Because he has a great sense of humor. Because I liked his sarcasm. Because he's SUPER sporty and fit. Because he loves God too(I think). Because he likes the same shows as me. Because he has a nice smile. Because he's tall. Because he has nice legs. Because he's a great conversationlist. Because I THOUGHT he was nice. I THOUGHT he was caring. I THOUGHT he was kind. I THOUGHT he was worth liking. Well, I was wrong.
I feel so accomplished. ;D I finished Day 1 of the 30 day challenge!!!! xDLabels: why like him day challenge
one less burden //
Tuesday, December 7, 2010 ( 7:44 PM )
Humor's my only escape. I can't do this anymore. I can't lie to myself anymore because deep inside, I always know that life is hard and that no matter how I fake it, I'm still not over you. I'm still a pathetic rag doll. Hah.
Sigh. Pardon my stupidity. Well, on the bright side, Vietnam helped me see things clearer and I have one less burden. :) I don't know about the others but I definitely changed on the five days away from safe lil' Singapore. For the better or worse I'm not sure yet but I changed.
2010's coming to a close but I don't know if I want it all to end. I mean 2010 has been a blast but I don't wanna grow up, I don't want to face another year.
I hope Jolene remembers her promise to me. And that she smacks me reaaaaaal hard.
Oh well, thank you Lord for helping me survive another day. And I'm sorry.
the last goodbye //
Wednesday, December 1, 2010 ( 1:22 AM )
Can't you see pass my lies? Pass my 'I'm okay's? Pass my false smiles? Pass my lame jokes? Pass my silent moments? Pass my laughter? Pass my 'hyper' SMS-es? Pass my hard eyes? Can't you see pass this act? Sometimes, I wonder if you really knew me. You never know how I really feel and just take things as what they appear to be. Well, here's a newsflash for you; you can't take everything at face-value. I can't believe how stupid and selfish you're being. All you ever think about is yourself. You always take for granted the times I stood by you and the great times we shared. Instead, you always think back to the sour moments of our relationship, all the rough rides.
I really miss you but I guess you prefer the company of others to mine. I'm sorry I can't be what you need and I'm sorry for letting go of you so easily. It's not because I don't think you're worth fighting for. It's really because I think you deserve more.
I think we've already exhausted all else that needs to be said so.
Goodbye.
