at the beginning with you
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Friday, April 30, 2010 ( 11:40 PM )
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( 11:22 PM )
Btw, lazy to post about that day. SOOO... I 'm gonna shh about the rest of that day and just crap about the present. Today was nice~ Met up with Valerie [SUGAR] <33 and had a LOOOONG and SUPAAAAAA nice heart to heart talk. :)) Crap. Phone just restarted. QQQQ. The bubbletea shop at PP no more sago drinks le. D; So sad right?! That's like the only branch of bubbletea shop I know that sells the sago series... But that isn't saying much 'cos I don't really know any other bubbletea shops... :| HESH. NVM. Yeah then Valerie and I talked about LOTSAAA stuff... That girl is awesome. X] Tomorrow's Charlotte's birthday... Giving her her presents on Tues ba.. XD Tired.. Excuses.
TO HAVE A FULFILLING LIFE: You need not have the money, you need not have the resources. You just need God, family, friends and leave out the bosses.
YOURS TILL I'M NOT A SINNER!!
To think, I could have been born deformed, or 'faulty', or not even brought into this world, but I'm so blessed that God loves me so, to provide and care for my every need, that He made me normal, and I got to know His love at birth.
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Wednesday, April 28, 2010 ( 2:11 AM )
Today was... Cool I guess. LOL. FLASHBACK:
This morn. Hmm... What happen arh? Oh yeah. I knew I was gonna be later than usual so I decided to walk SLOOOWLY to the MRT. Then I think I took the MRT 3 trains later than my usual. Can't remember. STML here... Yeah then I was walking and walking and walking then met Weiliang at the exit of the circle line down there. ._. Then he was like, complaining about that time when I whacked him in the canteen. Then I was like damn ____ le lar. Btw, that blank [<-] means I don't know how to explain how I was feeling. Then when we reached the traffic light down there I saw Shermaine. So I said bye to Weiliang and hello to Shermaine. Then we chatted a while... All the way until school inside, then we parted ways. Headed to class after that. You know what?! Haz reached school earlier than me. Zzz.. Yeah then mugged science lar, 'cos after assembly jiu shi science test le. Yeah then during attire check the time I was begging Miss Lin not to send me to take stupid nail clipping place. AND MISS LIN LET ME BE. BUUUUT I must cut my nails tomorrow lar. LOL. Yeah then for assembly today we had to sit in and watch our Sec 4 seniors debate. Opp won. LOL. The guy is cool~~ Haha.. Was discussing debate with Tasmin while the speakers were presenting their cases. Feel so damn guilty. BU STILL. LOL. Tasmin totally dissed the 1st speaker of the prop!! Haha... Tasmin is awesome! :))
Kay. Then after Assembly it was time fir the dreaded test. Think I'll fail. 'cos I did HORRIBLY. And you know what?! Hiro saw mt answers. ._. That SUCKAH. Btw, I'm dao-ing him now. AGAIN. LOL. Just for the fun of it. Probably will resume speaking to him tomorrow ba... Yeah okay back to just now. Science was okay......
After Science was Recess. Stayed in class to chiong maths. So hardworking right? LOL. Yeah then Quenton and Rachel finished most of my recess food. Thank goodness I still had my bread. :D YIPEEEE to bread. LOL. Anyways, Maths was okay ba... Miss Lin damn cute... She has the mini poker card and that HUGE one. And so many other cute stuff. LOL. Then had CE. Aqilah was absent so we had to skip the skit and discuss the pamphlet. Discussion was _____. Chatted with Rachel mostly via my Hope book and then Rachel used my brown marker to draw on my hand. LOL. Rachel's damn cute... Hahha.. Yeah then my hand is now very... vandalized? LOL. I dunno..
After CE we had English. Received back our compos and comprehensions. My compre is a total failure I tell you... Then Miss Ling was like, "Rebecca how come your compre so shitty whereas your compo so _____?" then I was like "*GASP* It's that bad?!" RUDE AWAKENING: IT WAS. Is, rather. ._. First time I get so low for compo sia... Damn jiat lat.
Eh continue tomorrow. Late le. Ps. Gonna sleep soon. Haha.. I blame the script. Night!! ^^
YOURS TILL WRITING ISN'T MY PASSION!!
The truth hurts, but it's the truth that keeps us believing.
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Sunday, April 25, 2010 ( 5:39 PM )
I lie awake, I drive myself crazy, drive myself crazy thinking of you~
Borrowed LeYun's handphone just now... Then I found picture of ______. Then in my head I was going siao lar.... Then I kept staring. Then it was seriously chaos inside me.. :X Then I remembered that time, last December. When we went shopping together. At Parkway Parade. HESH. Stupid me!! >< Then when I saw the picture I was totally wondering if I should send it to myself or not... Then Faith behind me kept peering over my shoulder... Then I was damn worried. But I still sent it. :X Now staring at the picture... :S HESH. I shouldn't have sent the picture lor... Mixed emotions now... It's nearing four months... What to do what to do? I feel so shit now.. I've only got myself to blame~
I wanna die already... Can I just give up...? I wanna wash my hands off this shit, but this is one situation where I can't run away... So I just have to face up to the situation.. Wish me luck. Now I cry alone in the dark~
YOURS TILL GOD AIN'T FORGIVING!!
I thought wrong.
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Saturday, April 24, 2010 ( 10:36 AM )
I think I'm suffering from pms sia... Nowadays I just keep getting so freaking pissed so freaking easily... Why's everybody emo-ing?! o.o Sucks.. Gimme a freaking break lar... And I'm sorry Haz, Hiro and Edward for ignoring you... Hesh. Stupid stupid stupid!!! I just want to get life over and done with already so I can freaking move on and JUST DIE. Has Gracia got something against me...? ARGH. Screw everything lar... Yesterday was horrid. Damn stressed. And Rachel, I seriously NEED YOU NOW!! >< PAIN PAIN PAIN. I'm letting go.
Screw everything lar... Why can't despair and disappointment just leave me alone?! Sucks to be me I guess. Jing Hui's a good darling. :)) At least she tries and cheer me up. But still. Enough is enough.
LIES. All of it. The moment you open your mouth lies just spew out. The sight of you: GRR. Sorry just won't cut it anymore. I can say one sorry and not mean it, what more do you have to say about a million cliched, empty sorries? LIES. That's right. "I'm so sorry.." PAH. I feel like spitting on you. Get a life can?! Don't bother other people lar! Nothing else to do issit?! Leave me alone.
My permanent frown... I blame YOU. Don't want to do this anymore.. Don't want to lie about the pain... Don't want to bother you about my troubles. Don't want to live like this anymore. Don't want to live anymore. So sick.
I look at all the other people around me, and I envy them, for they don't have to face the shit that I do everyday. They have no idea what kind of pain I suffer everyday.. If I were to think- how blessed are they- I would be wrong too, 'cos who knows? They might be harboring pain we'd never thought possible. How do I get rid of this pain that keeps weighing me down?
I look at this post and think it's shit.I don't even know why I'm gonna post it. Maybe 'cos I'm shit?
YOURS TILL EMO-ING ISN'T MY SWEET ESCAPE!!!
Please don't waste my time.
I wish I have more to say to you than just sorry.
'cos I was so high and now I'm so low.
Don't forget, I'm human too. So I may be smiling on the outside but I'm actually dying inside.
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Thursday, April 22, 2010 ( 8:26 PM )
For today, I guess I'll just talk about stuff that happened yesterday that I was feeling too crappy to blog about. This is taken from Rebekah's blog [sorry Rebekah!! >< Credits goes to you!!]:
"KAY,
i agree completely on the fact of what that particular church did was quite very "unacceptable" as you would have put it.
And it did definitely cause a lot of unecessary hevoc. As you heard MsLing say, it is true that many christians and catholics were extremely appalled by the matter. And they themselves felt that whatever that had happened was very "unacceptable" yeah.
But the fact that you openly insulted our religion wasn't so nice really... I know you may not believe in God, or christ or anything like that. But i just hope you know that it's very important to people like me and Rebecca. We don't mean to make it seem like we're "debating on the side of God"
but it was very disappointing and hurtful.... yaknowwhatimean? If that's the best way to put it ah...
But God didn't do anything to you right? You aren't really in the place to think you are right, because we all are after all simply arm-chair critics... If you think that more christians and catholics should be doing more charity work then shouldn't you also? But for us to have said that you don't do it either was very bad as well, because of the fact that we ourselves haven't been as involved as yet. So please, please respect my religion and i will respect your beliefs alright?
I'm saying this in the utmost respect i have for you as well. And i know whatever you said didn't mean to be insulting, but it reallyreally made my face feel extremely hot.
So for now. I hope i can say that you'd leave this as a "neverhappenedbefore" situation.
But whatever it is, i really hope you don't take this in the wrong way.."
Firstly, I TOTALLY AGREE WITH YOU REBEKAH!! HESH. I mean, aetist or not, you don't exactly have the right to criticize other people's religion... If we respect your religion why can't you respect ours? You can't just think all Christians and Catholics are like that because ___________ is like that right?! That's just so stereotypical! And I'm sorry if I insulted you yesterday but seriously, I cannot take this to the face without giving some opinions of my own. And you really shouldn't do this kind of thing again, if not I don't think I can hold myself back le. I understand that you were just giving your thoughts on the topic but can you PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE don't ever do this again? It's seriously heart wrenching to hear the comments you made on our religion and on our God and Saviour, so please. Don't go that ______ again next time.
Our class had two casualties yesterday, one during D & T lesson and the other during PFT. I don't really understand what happen lar, but according to OZY, Sheng Rong's nail kena the sanding machine and then the whole freaking nail came out and there was LOTSA blood.. O.O Then Sheng Rong was like, "Am I going to die?" and it was obvious that it was damn painful lar.. FEEL BETTER SHENG RONG!! Then Ikhmah... Hesh. I'm so sorry Ikhmah that I didn't help you at all yesterday.. >< Wish I could have helped you.. D; I'll make it up to you soon!! :))
Today had to do English Compo... Couldn't finish during lesson time so I stayed back to finish it up. Shaz wrote like 4 or 5 or 6 pages sia!! O.O She damn pro leh!! Elijah's compo is just pure sick.. =.='' Talking about sex one. Mine is like, I feel that it's not that good lar, 'cos the ending is I chiong one. Because late le I want go home what...
There's still like, some other things that had happened today lar but, no mood say. Sorry... Hesh. Today has been quite miserable though... >< The lit script.. Shucks lar.. What to do what to do?! RRR.
YOURS TILL I STOP ARGUING COMPLETELY!!
And you wonder why I'm like that..
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Wednesday, April 21, 2010 ( 9:55 PM )
You told me that failing is all just a part and parcel of life and it will eventually lead to success; so then why don't I feel accomplished?! My head is throbbing.. The pressure is building... ARGH. I don't want to carry on like this anymore.. It's like, I always tell myself, "Okay Rebecca. Tomorrow will be a new day. I won't slack so much then and I will actually hand in homework." But in the end, OF COURSE, I don't. =.='' I'm a screwed ass lar.. D; Had PFT today... Damn tired.. HESH. I WANNA RUN AWAY!! RUN AWAY FROM IT ALL!! :| Then I won't be so stressed le. It's damn hard sia.. I cannot even concentrate just now.. Passed everything but gonna retest every station except Sit-and-Reach. I seriously fail at that station. Haha... I wanna go sleep le. I know it's early but still. :X HESH. THE LIT SCRIPT!! >< HOW?! ARGH. I seriously shouldn't have joined scriptwriting. :S Now suffering the consequences.. HMM... Maybe I should first think of the lit thingamajig as an essay, and slowly figure it out. :| SIGH.
I don't wanna live anymore... I really need to set my priorities right. I must learn time management. I have to solve my anger management issues. I should fix all my _______ problems. I have so much to do... And so little time... I need your help now more than ever, Lord. I'm screwing my life... I'm so sorry Lord...
Just when I thought things couldn't get any worse, they did. I realized something today; whenever something goes wrong, I somehow always find someone to blame; and that someone is usually God. D; I shouldn't be blaming you Lord, instead, thanking you for loving me enough to discipline me. I have so many things to be thankful for, and yet I just take all these things for granted and ask you why haven't you given me more.
I never stop and think. I'm getting more and more moody nowadays.. D; Because of SOME things that have happened.. HESH. When I think back to the events that had happened in the past few days, I feel like ______ because time has flown by so quickly and I had wasted away so many days of my life rotting in a corner.
Life's confusing, yet so predictable. I just made a deal with Chee Keong. Hopefully, I remember about it tomorrow. :| OH AND!! REMINDER TO SELF: BRING TWO CHOCOLATES TO SCHOOL TOMORROW!!
The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; let the Lord's name be praised. - JOB 1:2
Tired... Gonna chiong the script now [not going to do everything]. Sorry if it turns out shitty... ><
YOURS TILL WE'RE ALL PERFECT!!
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Monday, April 19, 2010 ( 6:45 PM )
HOLOLO!! HESH. YA KNOW WHAT?! I was thinking about stuff just now, and I realized something. The NCHS concert was on the 10th of April [I think] which is like 2 weeks ago and I didn't even post about it. :X Me and my STML. HESH. Anyways, I'm gonna backtrack a bit and talk about it. :D Ain't that awesome? I know, thank you. Haha.. OKAY, REWIND AND REMIX:
AHEM AHEM. Okay. So right, on that day, I WAS LATE. I forgot why lar but yeah, I MADE ALECIA LATE TOO. So that's the saddest part and GOSH, I still feel guilty... DX Anyways, MOVING ON, we headed to the Kopitiam in CP, thinking we would meet the others there. Turns out, they were at POPULAR. :X Screwed asses. Never tell us earlier. LOL. JK JK!! Haha.. Yeah then Alecia and I met them at Popular. Hao Chen GREEEEEW. And he's more polite but also more sick. They say Kiat grew too but I'm not too sure... Ps Kiat Fong!! >< Kin Loon DEFINITELY did. It's like, I have to look UPPPP to talk to him. See how short I am... D; Wei Qi became chio-er. Denise is shorter than me and yet we're both 157. o.o Btw, she shrunk... Alecia, OF COURSE, was as chio as ever. XD
Yeah then went to Cold Storage to buy WQ's sushi and Denise and Alecia ended up buying some too. I didn't buy 'cos I'm POOOOORR. :S ANYWAYS, we took the MRT to Serangoon lar, then change to circle line till Bishan then change to the Jurong line and went to Yio Chu Kang [I THINK. >< My memory is SERIOUSLY failing. Sorry. Correct me if I'm wrong.] We got 'lost' halfway. Partly because of me. SORRY PEOPLE!!
AFTER THAT, we went to Nanyang Poly. :D It was COOL.. Kin Loon emo-ed a bit then... o.o Yeah then we got our seats and took PICTURES. Of course, I hid from the camera most times 'cos I'm photo-shy... Hahah... Then there was this retarded teacher who kept scolding us and telling us to shut up. =.='' Not us only lar, but the audience in general. Then the MCs gave us a false start. LOL.
THEN THEN THEN when Wind Orchestra the time right, got A LOT of people cheer and we screamed like shit. XP See we so supportive right? LOL. Yeah then I could only see SHN. And Isabel had a solo that none of us really heard... SORRY ISABEL!! I told you I got hearing problem le!! >< Sorry sorry sorry!! Didn't see Javier or YuFang or Isabel.. Cock eye mah... Haha... The Conductor damn entu sia.. He 'dance' around the stage one and right, AND RIGHT, HE JUMP HERE JUMP THERE ONE LEH!! LOL SIA!! Hahah!! ZiHua and Alecia kept laughing at him....
OH YEAH OH YEAH OH YEAH!! When ELDDS the time right, I seriously LMAO!! EVERY FREAKING SINGLE TIME Leonard open his bloody mouth I will laugh one. Which is not a lot of times lar BUT!! ROFLMFAO!! HAHA!! I laugh so loud and hard that even Kiat could hear me and my stomach ached.. Hehe!! :P Apparently laughing IS contagious 'cos Alecia laughed whenever I laughed and then everyone would start laughing. :D FREAKING FUNNY SIA!! HEHEH!!
ALSO RIGHT, wah lan sia!! Those people who join Chinese Dance and International Dance are seriously SHAMELESS!! The boobs and asses kept protruding here and there... =.='' The guys were all popping their eyes out and drooling all they could. That is probably the closest they'll ever get to seeing a girl naked.
I forgot when was the choir lar, but they damn fail sia!! Hahha.. Sorry, no offence lar but when they sing the time is like very few people paying attention. Then when they sang this one song right, I forgot what song is it lar but they sing until DAMN funny and got this guy who damn spastic and LAUGHED LIKE SHIT. He sitting front row some more sia!! Hahha... I laughed too lar but still, not as bad as him right?!
I QUOTE ALECIA'S BLOG: "Just some retards sitting behind us, kept commenting, cb this, cb that, na bei this na bei that. Damn bloody irritating, got one guy kept saying "cb cb cb cb" I WAS damn freaking irritated, he said this " I don't care the people dance here and there. " WTF. Then what for he buy ticket and watch damn idiot siah la. the lady with him also the same, DAMN irritating = = . hate them to hell. disturb my show. D<"
THEY SERIOUSLY DAMN IRRITATING ONE LOR!! I counted a total of 9 plus cbs from their area. His grammar damn limited sia.. Only scold na bei and cb...
=.='' SUCKAHS. Heh.
Stole these pictures from Alecia's blog [ps quite blur]:The 'dancing' conductor and the Band people XD
Glad and ZiHua
The people closest to the camera are WQ and Denise
The programme thingamajig
BACK TO THE PRESENT. Today was okay lar... No comments on it. All I wanna say is whacking people is awesome. And so was my talk to XinYi.
:D Finally took my revenge on Javier
[2E1] after Recess. It was damn awesome!!
^^ Shall whack him again some time soon. Thank goodness they didn't talk about _________ lor!! Only talk about ________. If they did talk about _________ right, I would whack them till they cannot walk. HESH. I miss primary school..
D; Whack Jeff or Javier
[6FAITH] the time damn shuang one... Then when they walk also very pain one.. HESH. THOSE WERE THE DAYS~~ Hehe...
AND AND AND!! HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TASMIN!! I'M SO SORRY I DIDN'T WISH YOU YESTERDAY!! ><
YOURS TILL GOD AIN'T KING OF MY LIFE!!
Spare me the pain.
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Sunday, April 18, 2010 ( 3:36 PM )
TO THE PEOPLE WHO CALL ME RANDOM:
THE RANDOM TITLE GOES TO CHARLOTTE HOR!! NOT ME!! ^^
BTW BTW!! CHERIE'S SELLING ME HER BROWN HAIRBAND!! YAY YAY YAY!! SHE RAWKS!! LALALA~~ Haha.. x] Tired.. Valerie's blog's awesome. Hahha... She's awesome!! <3 her!! Hahah.. Gonna tag Valerie's blog soon. :] Hopefully, we can meet up next Tues or Fri. Heh.
Today's church service was fulfilling. ^^ I prayed and prayed and prayed to God and then I felt slightly better. OMG JOB'S AWESOME SIA!! He damn pro lor... He never gave up on God.. He never did curse or blame God and still thanked our Heavenly Father for the suffering.. T.T I wanna be like him!! HESH. I feel so bad.. All I do is blame God for all my pain... >< SORRY GOD!! SIGH. I WANNA BE LIKE YOU JESUS~~
I shall chiong my homework later and limit my com time. x] See I becoming guai liao... Hehe... Not even start on homework yet though.. :S
OH YEAH OH YEAH OH YEAH!! ABOUT FRIDAY!! 2.4 RETEST THE TIME!! I wanna thank Jolene, Esther, Winnie, Farhana, Stephanie, Stephanie's Nai Nai, Joanne [ps I dunno how spell your name], Alisha, Rebecca Phua, Wen Zhen, Rachel, Clare, Hui Qi, Hui Qi's friends, Wei Liang, Wen Zhen's junior, Miss Tan, Mr Eswaran and our Almighty Father!! :D Jolene because she cheered me on like crazy when I was stitch-ing, Winnie and Esther for keeping in pace with me for the 1st ++ round, my juniors in general for being there and giving me the pressure and encouragement, Farhana for helping me pace, Stephanie for 'giving' me the strength to go on, Stephanie's Nai Nai just for being there, Joanne for Jia You-ing me and being in front of me, Alisha for cheering me on and smiling at me, Rebecca Phua for pushing me literally and being my support, Wen Zhen for helping me and de-stressing me before the run itself, helping me have fun and being there and not letting me puke, Rachel for calling me after and believing in me, Clare for caring about me, Hui Qi and her friends for entertaining me before the run, Wei Liang for the stress, Wen Zhen's junior for his voice that helped me chiong my last round, Miss Tan for running alongside me for that short time frame and at the same time pacing me, Mr Eswaran for his weird antics and time keeping and OF COURSE, GOD FOR GIVING ME THE STRENGTH AND BEING THERE WITH ME; AND SENDING MEMORY VERSES IN MY HEAD THEN HELPED ME PUSH MYSELF!! XP ALL OF YOU ARE PURE AWESOME FOR SUPPORTING AND HELPING ME EVEN IF YOU DIDN'T KNOW IT!! ^^ THANK YOU SOOOO SOOOOOOOO MUCH!! XD Okay I think I go le. Zwinky's awaiting me~
YOURS TILL EATING AIN'T MY LIFE!!
I really want to worship you my Lord~
Are you connected to the True Vine?
Thank you for being there when I needed you.
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Saturday, April 17, 2010 ( 5:34 PM )
I cannot take it already. XINYI AND RACHEL: I NEED YOU NOW. AS IN LIKE. SERIOUSLY. NOW. The lit script thing is SERIOUSLY draining me. ZZZ. I mean, it's like, Joel keep talking about what, dv, ghost rider and Halo and all that shit, and Jerald kinda wants Mummies inside [he's kinda taking charge though], and Elijah keeps crapping about shit. Jing Hui too busy and Shaz tries to help but they always come too late. GRR. I FEEL LIKE JUST QUITTING EVERYTHING. Maybe I should. Then I can just take some of the burden off my shoulders, step back and let the others do the work. I tell you, I'll bet my life will improve greatly after that. HESH. My life is seriously going downhill. It's screwed. Fucking screwed. XinYi I need another talk please... And Rachel, I don't care. We ARE going to go out after mye, just you and me, and we can just hang. And I miss church... D; I should have gone last night... HESH. I don't care. I'm going tomorrow and begging Him to forgive me. Listening to Break Your Heart right now... Feels like my situation, just that it's HEEM telling it to me. :| I'm feeling so down right now.. Moses is right... I'm emo-ing.. And Felicia Jie is right too.. *sigh* I still can't believe I stooped so low.. HESH. Not in the blogging mood. Sorry...
YOURS TILL THE SUN RISES IN THE WEST AND SETS IN THE EAST!!
I don't know what to think anymore.
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( 1:14 PM )
LOL LOL LOL!! Hahah.. This is awesome. :D Found it while going around photobucket. XP Visiting cracked.com later. Hehe.. ALSO:
This probably applies to the guys I've whacked... XD Not the face of course, but their backs. ^^ AHEM AHEM. BORED. Hahha.. Think I'll go now. :))
YOURS TILL VIOLENCE AIN'T MY THING!!
People always say never regret. What a load of crap.
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( 12:18 AM )
I know I haven't been posting for a long time, sorry. DX Now, if you're wondering about my 2.4, I. FREAKING. FAILED. IT. THE. FIRST. TIME. So yeah. Today was the retest. We'll be knowing the results on Mon, so I'll just have to be patient... :X HESH. I'm not a patient person, that's for sure. Scarly I fail. Then need retest again. :S I tell you, I'll seriously die... I'm aching all over now.. I wanna take a break, from ____, from _______, from ______ and from ____. I tell you, I'm going through hell right now.. Stupid me. :X Thank goodness I have Xin Yi and Rachel and Winnie and Wen Zhen and Rebekah to help me pull through this.. And I'm blessed to have God... :] Love... It's such a big word... People keep misusing it... HESH. Dry your eyes~ Will I be able to look confidently in God's Majesty and tell him I made it...? Evania's right.. *sigh* Goosebumps. I guess I should really count my blessings and make the best of my life and try and spread God's word... But can I really spread His gospel if I'm such a bad testament? So I guess I'm gonna try and fix everything first. :] Pain is like an arrow piercing through my heart.. It's the weekend, but it took my brain 3/4 of a day to register that. Haha.. Lies; open your mouth and suddenly it's non-stop verbal diarrhea spewing from your mouth. -o- Tell me something I don't know... I need to know the truth, not the shit that you repeat over and over again and say that it's the facts. I still need to study for mid-year... But as usual, I'm too lazy. :X Which reminds me, NOTE TO SELF: GO TO ART FRIEND FOR DNT STUFF AND FILE MATHS FILE!! Some things never change. And I guess I'm grateful for that... but. Still. Yeah.. I'm damn tired.. Can barely keep my eyes open. So I think I go first ba..
YOURS TILL FREELOADING AIN'T MY SPECIALTY!!
The greatest guide to life is the Bible.
God is our Father, and so when he wills us to suffer, we should remember that God loves us enough to discipline us.
If your relationship with God is strong, everything else will fall into place.
Picture:
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Sunday, April 11, 2010 ( 4:36 PM )
I need you now... I promised lotsa stuff.. But I didn't deliver.. I'm so sorry... D; Forgive me please...
Sometimes, when you feel like the whole world is against you, it's your enemies who pull you up.
Sianded. HESH. I'm damn stressed now... Some of you should know why lar... Tomorrow 2.4. Not looking forward to it... I kinda envy Denise.. Hesh. Ma nagging again. Gtg.
YOURS TILL GOD ISN'T LOVE!!!
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( 3:45 PM )
I'm gonna change my playlist soon. Cracked.com is seriously awesome. :D LOOK AT THIS:
"They both shit through the same hole."
"To fall from the ox onto the ass."
"To shit on the world."
"To wipe one's ass on the door."At least that's what we do when we want to treat something lightly. Wipe our poop on it.
Awesome right? Hahha.. So many stuff involving poop. Sheesh. Still have to do debate blog background. :X Lazy sia... Exploring Cracked.com and listening to my playlist. My com got prob sia... Just now my msn window disappeared. :S OH OH OH!! OH YEAH!! I just remembered that I have an awesome game awaiting me. :D CYA!!!
YOURS TILL CRUSHES EXIST NO MORE!!
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Saturday, April 10, 2010 ( 1:56 PM )
Liking you is my biggest crime.
Hesh. Life is screwed. I'M MARRIED TO GOD!! YAY!! Ytd night was... weirdly fun. And randomly random. And bloody ass confusing. HESH. Plurkbuddy's pissing me off... GRR. This is gonna be a short post hor. BORED. Haven't finish NYAA. Still have to help Hirotaka. Dammit. I like my new playlist. :D I miss Sarah French!! And Rowann!! >< OMG. AND I TOTALLY MISS DADDY THE PERV!! So basically I miss Zwinky.. But... HESH. I just keep breaking promises. SIMPLE ones at that. I'M SO SORRY MAN CHUN!! >< SORRY RACHEL!! T.T SORRY SORRY SORRY!! OMG. I suck. Sorry's become the most cliched word in my dictionary. ._. I no mood blog le. Ps.
YOURS TILL I AIN'T VIOLENT NO MORE!!
I would be lying if I said I didn't care.
Song that matches my mood now: ♫Accidentally In Love by Counting Crows
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Monday, April 5, 2010 ( 9:15 PM )
Life's being harsh to me.... I hurt too bad right now.. God, please help me... D; I wish church was near home.. Then can go there meditate everyday.. D: Fur or hair? Sheesh. That's Ruth's Science homework btw... Some guys are pure mean. -o- They treat guys like toilet paper like that... Like they so disposable... Assholes. Sigh. I want a clean break. Seriously. How sweet is it to hold a newborn baby~ And feel they joy he gives~ Stupid materialistic world... People keep telling us to cherish our youth and not take things for granted.. But we just turn a death ear. I know that sounds totally cliche and all that lar but... If we really think about life, we will discover how short it actually is. And how we should try and seize the moment. Sigh... Thank you God, for today.
FINALLY //
( 8:01 PM )
Kay so I'm FINALLY gonna post and please don't be disappointed if it's too short!! >< Yeah so the past weekend has by far been THE WORST ones in my life. I won't go into details. It's just MUCH too personal. Yeah then today was awesome lar! :D But... I don't want to say too much. Ps. Haha.. I had goosebumps the best of this morning... Rebekah and Rachel know why... Haish. Even debate was cool today, I'm still damn... Ai yah. Some people would know... I don't know how explain... HESH. Life is SADDD... I think I go chiong Common wealth essay le. That's right, I didn't complete it. Surprise, surprise!
YOURS TILL BANGS AIN'T SHERMAINE!!
December 2009 is my biggest regret.
Promise is a big word. Am I even sure we can keep our promise to each other?!
Keep your friends close, and enemies closer.
Song that matches my mood now: ♫Untitled by Simple plan
