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Wednesday, July 28, 2010 ( 11:27 PM )

Never Again. GAYS ARE HOT! XD Omg I feel so random. But I just read a book, and TWO out of FOUR plus plus stories were mad awesome! Hehe! SHA-ZAA!! Hmm... What to do what to do ~ OMG. The current CSI episode so freaking cool~ HUZZAH! Bored ~ Nothing much to say today. Tomorrow's chinese... :X I'm gonna die...

YOURS TILL CHRISTIANITY ISN'T AWESOME!!!!!

Not all who wander are lost.

Saturday, July 24, 2010 ( 10:38 PM )

Misery. >> [Rebekah's blog] ELLOOOOOOOO!! ~ I just realized that YuFang's blog is damn nice and meaningful. O: Hahah.. Omg. Accidentally on Purpose is freaking cute!! LOL. Gosh I miss Lover. D: Although I just went out with her yesterday... CHEER UP VALERIE!! ((: What you're going through is only for now!!! >< S-M-I-L-E!! ;D Hesh. I'm getting more and more stressed. >< Mostly 'cos of debate... :X I don't know if I should give up... On everything... Sigh. Anyways, it's Joy's birthday today.

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOY DEAR!!!! :]"

Haha.. I'm so tired... ._. Wonder what tomorrow will bring... Hmm... Anyways, don't feel like posting much anymore. -m- TA-TA~

Oh yeah [x2]

So scared of breaking it that you wont let it bend
And I wrote two hundred letters I will never send
Sometimes these cuts are so much deeper than they seem
You'd rather cover up, I'd rather let them bleed

So let me be and I'll set you free

oh yeah
I am in misery there ain't nobody who can comfort me oh yeah
Why wont you answer me?

The silence is slowly killing me oh yeah
Girl you really got me bad, you really got me bad
I'm gonna get you back, I'm gonna get you back

Your salty skin and how it mixes in with mine
The way it feels to be completely intertwined
Not that I didn't care, it's that I didn't know
It's not what I didn't feel its what I didn't show

So let me be and I'll set you free
I am in misery there aint no line that could comfort me oh yeah
Why wont you answer me the silence is slowly killing me, Oh yeah

Girl you really got me bad, you really got me bad
I'm gonna get you back, I'm gonna get you back

You say your faith is shakin' you may be mistaken
Keep me wide awake and waiting for the sun
I'm desperate and confused, so far away from you
I'm getting there, I don't care where I have to run

Why do you do what you do to me yeah
Why wont you answer me answer me yeah
Why do you do what you do to me yeah
Why wont you answer me answer me yeah

I am in misery there aint no line that could comfort me oh yeah
Why wont you answer me, Your silence is slowing killing me, Oh yeah

Girl you really got me bad, you really got me bad
I'm gonna get you back, I'm gonna get you back
Girl you really got me bad, you really got me bad
I'm gonna get you back, I'm gonna get you back
Girl you really got me bad, you really got me bad

YOURS TILL LIFE ISN'T UNEXPECTED!!!!!!!!

It's the little things you do that actually count.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010 ( 9:18 PM )

This town, used to be a pretty place to stay
A place to stop up on the highway
But all of those things changed on the day
You packed up your bags
And you ran away

All they say is how you've changed
Everyday I stay the same
So you can keep the necklace that I gave to you
I'll keep the shitty tattoos

I can see it from the other side
The grass isn't always as green
The house is burned to ashes
I'm no longer in between
R.I.P.
R.I.P.
You and me

I can see it from the other side
The grass isn't always as green
The house is burned to ashes
I'm no longer in between
R.I.P.
R.I.P.
You and me

I count the empty bottles upon the bar
But I give up I can't count that far
The lights in this place are too dim to see
They're kickin' me out
It's a quarter past three

They tell me you're all I got
I just need these dreams to stop
You can keep the necklace that I gave to you
I'll keep the shitty tattoos

I can see it from the other side
The grass isn't always as green
The house is burned to ashes
I'm no longer in between
R.I.P.
R.I.P.
You and me

I can see it from the other side
The grass isn't always as green
The house is burned to ashes
I'm no longer in between
R.I.P.
R.I.P.
You and me

In the back of the car
On the way to your home
In the pouring rain
On the side of the road
In the light of the street
In the recline of the seat
You told me I should move on

In the back of the car
On the way to your home
In a pouring rain
On a side of the road
In the light of the street
In the recline of the seat
You told me I should move on

I can see it from the other side
The grass isn't always as green
The house is burned to ashes
I'm no longer in between
R.I.P.
R.I.P.
You and me

I can see it from the other side
The grass isn't always as green
The house is burned to ashes
I'm no longer in between
R.I.P.
R.I.P.
You and me

HEEEEEEEEEEEY!! ~ Heheh! So after 'MUCH' prompting from Lover, I've decided to update my blog. :D Hahah! Be grateful, kay? Btw, the song above is R.I.P. by 3OH!3. ^^ It's an awesome song kay?! Hahha! Go listen! The song is Farhanah recommend one! Heheh! She's one awesome junior, even though she bullies me. ;D Heheh! But I always bully her back so I guess it's fair. ANYWAYS. ANOTHER SOOOONG~ This one's called Déjà Vu! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! I like this song too btw. :P

Hey, Mr. Bartender mix me a drink,
I really need something to tell me it's okay not to think,
Because I've been to all these bars
And I've seen all these places.
I've hit on all these girls
I've heard the same conversations.

Cab driver, cab driver
Take me away,
'Cause I already know
All the words that she'll say.
And I'll be creepin' out the window
At the first sign of day,
'Cause every single night it seems to go the same
Way.

I think I've been here before,
I think I've run into you,
I know the things that you do,
'Cause this is déjà vu.

(Whoaa)
This is déjà vu.
(Whoaa)
This is déjà vu.

I think I've been here before,
I think I've run into you,
I know the things that you do,
'Cause this is déjà vu.

(Whoaa)
This is déjà vu.
(Whoaa)
This is déjà vu.

Mr. Bartender,
You will kick me out.
And the blonde girl in the back
You'll put your tongue down my mouth.
And the greaser in the jacket's
Gonna pick a fight.
And he'll probably kick my ass,
'Cause I'm drunk every night.

Officer, officer
Tell me the truth,
How many times can I
Get in trouble with you;
Before they lock me up
For all the bad things that I do?
But you don't
And that's why this feels like déjà
(Ooo this feels like déjà OW)
Vu.

I think I've been here before,
I think I've run into you,
I know the things that you do,
'Cause this is déjà vu.

(Whoaa)
This is déjà vu.
(Whoaa)
This is déjà vu.

I think I've been here before,
I think I've run into you,
I know the things that you do,
'Cause this is déjà vu.

(Whoaa)
This is déjà vu.
(Whoaa)
This is déjà vu.

I did it like this,
I did it like that,
And it always comes back around.
I don't know how
To break this pattern down.
(Down, down)

I did it like this,
I did it like that,
And it always comes back somehow
I don't know how
To break this pattern down.
(Down, down, down, down)

I think I've been here before,
I think I've run into you,
I know the things that you do,
'Cause this is déjà vu.

(Whoaa)
This is déjà vu.
(Whoaa)
This is déjà vu.

I think I've been here before,
I think I've run into you,
I know the things that you do,
'Cause this is déjà vu.

(Whoaa)
This is déjà vu.
(Whoaa)
This is déjà vu.

We had Badminton Tournament and thankfully, I didn't play, 'cos I didn't want to. :] Yeah and we had some disputes then lar but I think it's more or less settled? Anyways, I had fun just now. Kinda anyway. And I tell you, sitting in front of Yong Lin, Brandon and Louis during Cohort Learning is totally fun but can vomit blood one. But yeah, it's fun lar. Haha! Rachel and I totally had fun making fun of Mr Tang and his ass then!!! BUAHAHAHAHAHAH!!! Good times, good times. :D I like the four B's!! HAHA! Lazy post anymore le... But I shall say this: I TOTALLY AM LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS FRIDAY'S OUTING WITH LOVER!!!! XD Oh and Lover, be strong. ((:

YOURS TILL ICE CREAM AIN'T COOL!!!!

They're not worth your time and energy if they don't treat you like you are.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010 ( 8:22 PM )

She's Bulletproof
Oooh ooooh oh oh ooooh

It was love before

Girl I know your heart's been true

Just more and more; I can tell you barely survived

Girl my love will be the same, I'm not tryna run no games

I just want your tears to dry

Your heart's the target but every time I fire I cant get thro throo through
I fight my hardest but I'm runnin out of weapons to use, use

My losings not a option so I-

keep shootin my love away (x2)
damn this girl is bulletproof, proof but I,
keep shootin my love away (x2)
damn this girl is bulletproof proof

She's bulletproof

Feels like we both have more
out of aim can't shoot no more
what do you want from me
I can feel you reachin out now
but you gotta let your guard down
why's it so hard to see oooh

your heart's the target but every time I fire I cant get thro throo through
I fight my hardest but I'm runnin out of weapons to use use
my losings not a option so I

keep shootin my love away (x2)
damn this girl is bulletproof proof but I
keep shootin my love away (x2)
damn this girl is bulletproof proof [ she's bulletproof ]
ooooh ooooh oh oh ooooh (x2)

your heart's the target but every time I fire I cant get thro throo through
I fight my hardest but I'm runnin out of weapons to use use
my losings not a option so I

keep shootin my love away (x2)
damn this girl is bulletproof proof but I
keep shootin my love away (x2)
damn this girl is bulletproof proof

She's bulletproof

( 8:00 PM )

Dynamite. Dammit. I'm always so tired nowadays. -o- Omg. CMC found a vid, and it's just fucking horrible. I felt so pissed when I saw it.

So ass right?! Wah lan somemore this is bad for Singapore's reputation. Scarly foreigners think all Singaporeans are like that.. Then we die liao lor! Eh the dog so cute... Then its cries... Omg. I feel like slapping that bitch. I mean discipline dog also don't need discipline until like that right?! D< Hesh. Shit the woman lar...

Omg I feel so sad for the dog... D: Omg Dynamite rawks so I'm gonna add A MV [I said A So it's not the official one] and idc if the lyrics are wrong, just enjoy the song. (:

I came to dance, dance, dance, dance
I hit the floor
'Cause that's my, plans, plans, plans, plans
I'm wearing all my favorite
Brands, brands, brands, brands
Give me space for both my hands, hands, hands, hands
You, you
Cause it goes on and on and on
And it goes on and on and on

I throw my hands up in the air sometimes
Saying AYO
Gotta let go
I wanna celebrate and live my life
Saying AYO
Baby, let's go

'Cause we gon' rock this club
We gon' go all night
We gon' light it up
Like it's dynamite
Cause I told you once
Now I told you twice
We gon' light it up
Like it's dynamite

I came to move, move, move, move
Get out the way me and my crew, crew, crew, crew
I'm in the club so I'm gonna do, do, do, do
Just drop the phone, came here to do, do, do, do

Yeah, yeah

Cause it goes on and on and on
And it goes on and on and on

I throw my hands up in the air sometimes
Saying AYO
Gotta let go
I wanna celebrate and live my life
Saying AYO
Baby, let's go

'Cause we gon' rock this club
We gon' go all night
We gon' light it up
Like it's dynamite
Cause I told you once
Now I told you twice
We gon' light it up
Like it's dynamite

I'm gonna take it all out
I'm gonna be the last one standing

I rule the whole night

I'm gonna be the last one landing
'Cause I, I, Believe it
And I, I, I
I just want it all
I'm gonna put my hands in the air
Hands in the air
Put your hands in the air

I throw my hands up in the air sometimes
Saying AYO
Gotta let go
I wanna celebrate and live my life
Saying AYO
Baby, let's go

'Cause we gon' rock this club
We gon' go all night
We gon' light it up
Like it's dynamite
Cause I told you once
Now I told you twice
We gon' light it up
Like it's dynamite

Hehe~ Miss Ling and Miss Lin treated us ice cream today! ~ Hahah~

YOURS TILL EATING ISN'T FULFILLING!!!

No, I never told you; I just held it in.

Monday, July 12, 2010 ( 11:00 PM )

Terrified. I feel so fake. :\ My junior (I shall not specify who but some of you should know) said that she cannot imagine me sad/ emo-ing 'cos "I'm always so happy all the time". Well, in my life, this is not the way things go. I mean, take MYE as an example. Rachel you remember right? How I was like then right? Yeah. It's depressing to even REMEMBER the term. ._. Sheesh. I feel like such a fraud. -w- Oh well, here's some messages for my beloved. (:

VALERIE- Hey Lover. ;D Imy like siao right now; I haven't seen you in like, a few weeks? It feels like years though. O: Whatever happens, just know that I'll be right here if you need me. :D And it's good to stop running once in a while. :] Heck care what your other netballers say and just in-their-face them with your mad awesome skills!!! :P Work hard kay? And don't be so emo and down all the time, you still need to maintain your chio-ness hor! ;D Hahha!! Above all, have fun!!! XD

PEIJING- LAOPO!!!! :D Hehe! Sorry arh.. Now cannot sms a lot le 'cos I got sms limit le. >< And I hit the limit le. So yeah. I'M GONNA DIE WITHOUT SMS-ING!!!! D; Anyways, life may seem boring now but find a way to make it fun and worth it. (: You can call me if you wanna talk. ^^ Stay chio hor!! And don't keep getting pissed. -m- Later you have wrinkles arh!! O:

RACHEL [friend]- Ah girl arh, for now, just put up with whatever life throws at you, okay? I'll be your tissues or something. ((: And right, just put up with him first. Just remember that God loves us and He's just putting our faith to a test, or something. :D Don't let Him down and never forget that ILY!!! XD Jia you hor and NEVER GIVE UP!! XP

JING HUI- Jing Hui my Darling!!!! SLEEP EARLIER!!!! >< If not I'll keep nagging you, and then you'll say I'm like your Mother like that. :X Must learn to take care of your cute cute body!!! ;] CHILL MORE HOR~

JOY- Joy my Dear, even though times may seem hard now, you'll just have to pull through and come out of this stronger than ever kay? ;D And I seriously don't think you should wait until so long then ask her. :\ But that's just my opinion. ._. Whatever you do, just know that I'll always support you and pray for you!! (:

RACHEL [mei]- Rachel arh, Rachel... TSK. Can you please stop keeping to yourself so much and just open up?! :\ And don't emo lar... It's not good. And no matter what you think, I always have and always will love you. <3

CLAUDIA- Omg Claudia, it's only been A DAY and yet I miss you. -o- I'm an impatient person, so I'll only wait 3 years for you to come back before I go and find you okay? ;D Please don't forget me!!! >< I know I won't forget you and I hope you like the present!! (:

MANISHA- Gosh Manisha! O: Now that you're gone it's like... I have almost like no one to confide in anymore. :\ I don't see Nicci anymore and Claudia is leaving soon. :8 I don't even bother getting close to the others anymore... Calista's coming next week though... Did I tell you about her? She's freaking cool and you really have to meet her sometime soon!! (:

MY AWESOME DEBATE MATES- Kay so the road hasn't exactly been very smooth since we started but hey! We're doing really well, especially the juniors! (; Yes, even you Weiliang! Hahah! Even though it's really REALLY tiresome to prepare for a debate every other week, I guess it's good discipline, yeah? Haha... And those who weren't there on Sat, you missed an AWESOME FREE SWENSONS EARTHQUAKE, courtesy of Edward! Hahah! But seriously, you guys should have been there!! :D DESPICABLE ME was damn cute!! ^^

MY ENTU DRAMA MATES- I know that Danny has really been very tough and hard on us for the performance tomorrow, but like what I said just now, practice makes perfect, right? So yeah we shall just pull through together and all end up with that awesome 'AURA' Danny keeps saying every trained drama Student should have huh? Yeah we should. :D Hahha! So let's work hard and continue freeloading on Jordy kay? ;D Jk jk. But I'm serious about the 1st part lar. :\ Yeah so let's JY and if Danny scolds us, don't take it too personally. XD

You by the light is the greatest find
In a world full wrong you're the thing that's right
Finally made it through the lonely to the other side

You said it again, my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions

Watching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in love and I'm terrified
For the first time in the last time in my only life

And this could be good, it's already better than last
And love is worse than knowing you're holding back
I could be all that you needed if you let me try

You said it again my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star

I'm at the edge of my emotions

Watching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in love and I'm terrified
For the first time in the last time in my only

I only said it 'cos I mean it, I only mean 'cos it's true
So don't you doubt what I've been dreaming
'Cos it fills me up and holds me close whenever I'm without you

You said it again my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star

Watching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in love and I'm terrified
For the first time in the last time in my only life

Hehe... I've got to go soon, but before I go I wanna say Jordy's an awesome sissy and he's very kind 'cos he has treated me like 2 times to far. :P Hahah...

YOURS TILL DEATH ISN'T A SAD THING!!!!!

The Method to My Madness.

Saturday, July 10, 2010 ( 12:12 AM )

Can I disown myself? Like seriously? -w- I don't like myself. I'm sorry Lord but it's true... Shucks lar.. Why can't I have more self-control?! D; I'm seriously not happy with myself sia... :8 Omg Britney Spears 'before' songs are so awesome... O: Why must she become like that now?! >< Why must people keep changing?! Why must the world corrupt us?! ]: WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY?! I HATE YOU REBECCA LOO JIA YUN!!!!! D< I wish I can just die. ):

Notice me, take my hand
Why are we strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me

Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I make believe that you are here
It's the only way I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry

At night I pray
That soon your face will fade away

And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby

YOURS TILL SONGS AREN'T AWESOME!!!!

Wednesday, July 7, 2010 ( 10:12 PM )

Here's a song that I think really applies to my life right now. :\

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KMcD5ulUbsw

Go there right now. (: It's worth it. Haha... Sorry I couldn't put the video here 'cos it isn't allowed. If you want the lyrics just click on the description area. ;D Hahha... Some of you might understand why I said my first sentence, others might not. It all depends on how well you know me. -w- Gosh I really like the song. O: Hahah... And the vid too! :P Sigh... Not looking forward to tomorrow... ._.

YOURS TILL BUTTERCUPS DON'T SOUND AWESOME!!!

Should I give up, or should I just keep chasing pavements?

Saturday, July 3, 2010 ( 9:59 PM )

Omg I totally love this song, even though it's super old. It's so freaking deep and it's my fav song when I was a kid. :D And it's still awesome! Hehe!

YOURS TILL FEAR EXISTS NO MORE!!!!

I try.