at the beginning with you
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Saturday, May 29, 2010 ( 6:20 PM )
This pictures speaks for itself.
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Wednesday, May 26, 2010 ( 11:50 PM )
I hate being a girl sometimes. I mean, seriously. Being a girl sucks big time! Zzz... I wanna have my menopause now... Wah lan sia. I've got stories to tell you Rachel. Dig your ears later. You too Valerie and Peijing! Damn tired right now... *YAWN*
Hey. That's me. Don't you see the resemblance?
You know what?! You suck leh! SERIOUSLY! YOU GIVE PEOPLE ATTITUDE. THEN SCREAM AT OTHER PEOPLE FOR GIVING YOU THAT FACE. YOU SAY LEH! I WON'T SHOUT AT YOU MEH?! I WON'T GIVE YOU HELL MEH?! YOU SO RUDE TO EVERYONE. THEN KEEP BLAMING ME FOR "SETTING BAD EXAMPLE". WTF LAR! IS YOU SO STUPID WANT FOLLOW MY "EXAMPLE" ONE! MY FAULT YOU SO STUPID ARH?! YEAH IT'S "HEREDITY" RIGHT?! EVERYTHING MY FAULT RIGHT?! ____ NOT HAPPY MY FAULT. ______ NOT HAPPY MY FAULT. YOU GET BAD RESULTS MY FAULT. YOUR STUFF LOST MY FAULT. COM LAG MY FAULT. ______ PUNISH US MY FAULT. YOU NO TIME DO HOMEWORK MY FAULT. _______ CRY MY FAULT. _____ TIO BULLIED MY FAULT. TEACHER NOT HAPPY WITH YOU MY FAULT. EVERYTHING MY FAULT RIGHT?! YEAH LAR YEAH LAR! SO I DIE BETTER RIGHT?! I WILL. SOON. DON'T WORRY. YOU WON'T HAVE TO WAIT LONG.
WTF. NOW YOU ANGRY WITH ME. I'M HUMAN ONE ALSO OKAY?! YOU THINK I NO FEELINGS ONE ARH?! YOU THINK I DON'T ALREADY HAVE MY OWN SET OF PROBLEMS ARH?! THEN WHAT. AFTER I ANSWER BACK AND TRY TO LET YOU UNDERSTAND YOU SCOLD ME SAY WHAT, "OH SO YOU'RE SAYING I'M A BAD _______ LAR! NEVER ___________." THEN THE FUCKING FACE COME OUT. NOT ENOUGH IS IT?! KILL ME LAR! YOUR LIVES WILL BE SOOOOOO DAMN MUCH EASIER.
Screw this world lar. Screw my life. I wish I can just die now... But then, if I were to face God, will I be able to tell him that I lived my life, that I spread the word, that I was a good disciple? Of course not. Life's too short. I need your guidance right now, Lord. ): I'm pissed. ._. As can be seen from above. Somemore I already damn tired from the lit rehearsal. Wonder if I can get cip points. :8 Trying to distract myself. ARGH. I wanna sleep all of this off. Sleeping helps. Sometimes. I guess. Fuck lar.
Doesn't this remind you of Man Chun?
YOURS TILL I DON'T HAVE ANGER MANAGEMENT ISSUES!!!!
I'm gonna leave the world outside.
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Tuesday, May 25, 2010 ( 7:16 PM )
I just wanna be there for you when things go bad... But it seems like you're pushing me away... ):
Okay. So.... Um. Well. I'm having a lot of mood swings nowadays. So, don't piss me off hor. Kay anyways. I don't know why I'm posting but yeah I am. So be happy! :)) Suddenly I feel like Humpty Dumpty... :8 Hesh. Post exam activities is shit I tell you, S-H-I-T. Damn sian one. Zzz... ._. Life's weird now... Many interesting things have happened over the few days I haven't posted but I shall not blog about them 'cos I don't feel like telling you my life story. :8 I don't know how I can keep this up anymore... My mask's slipping... PFFT. I can't wait for the hols... :X Think I'm gonna end this post soon so.
YOURS TILL SINGAPORE SNOWS!!!!!!
Shut up with the lies.
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Sunday, May 23, 2010 ( 10:24 PM )
Okay so I know I haven't posted recently but I got reason one hor!! :8 It's very complicated lar... Let's just say my posts will get shorter and shorter.. :X I'm sorry... FUCK LAR. SHIT YOU. ASSHOLE. ARGH. No mood blog le. Goodbye.
Forget me not.
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Tuesday, May 18, 2010 ( 11:24 PM )
Cry and mean it.
I bit my lip and asked myself, where do my loyalties lie.
When there's no other path you can take, make your own.
"My mother taught me to believe in silver, to believe in things, but I think it's more important to believe in me." - STEALING HEAVEN
"'sorry' is bullshit and is always followed by more bullshit." - STEALING HEAVEN
"My eyes stung, and I lied to myself, said it was just from the sun." - STEALING HEAVEN
YOURS TILL MATHS DOESN'T CONFUSE ME!!
ice cream - & - brown
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Friday, May 14, 2010 ( 4:44 PM )
SOOOOO. Now that exam is unofficially over, I shall update. Man Chun nagged me to update just now. :X Oh well, CMC THERE YOU ARE! A POST! Hahah... I'm not in the mood for much nowadays.... ARGH. I HATE HATE HATE MUGGING. DX Yesterday, from 2pm to 7pm ++ was mugging for Maths. 'cos only then could I feel the stress. LAST PAPER THEN FEEL STRESS. Wth right?! Yeah anyways after mugging for a while I got SUPA stressed and felt like pulling out my hair. ._. I think my hair was dropping at a rate of 5+/min. Awesome right? *sigh* Yeah then after mugging and dinner I was super tired... And super agitated. So I went to sleep at 9+. Haha.. People tired lar, so sleep so early. :8 *sigh* Now need finish up script. OH SHIT. SCRIPT. SHIT SHIT SHIT. I WANNA GIVE UP ON SCRIPT LE LAR! LET JOEL DO EVERYTHING LAR! D: Btw, sorry people if I start snapping at you. ): I'm not in the best of moods lar, like I've said so many times before. I feel like bleaching my mind... D; So I can forget all those bad memories and all that shit. Flush them down the toilet bowl... I wish it weren't so...
Hesh. DREAM GIRL~ I wanna meet up with lover... ): Have another heart-to-heart talk... I need to talk to her now... :X LOVER!! AFTER YOUR EXAMS!! MEET UP PLS!! >< I just want to hide in the corner and break down...
Just now... Screw the teachers lar. After the Maths exam we had some stupid DnT briefing where the teachers couldn't just go STRAIGHT to the point and they kept us waiting for like 1 hour. I dunno. Maybe I'm exaggerating. Ai yah... Then right. We had to collect our internationalization whatever form. Wah lan sia! Wait for like 10 min ++ for one stupid form... Then after that had to chiong musics. I HATE THAT STUPID SOFTWARE!!! It kept lagging on me then I was already very kan chiong, 'cos WZ at Mac waiting for me. Then in the end I just gave up on Music and got a B. ._. A FREAKING B. :8 HESH. Then right. Chiong out of school the time. I call WZ. She left Mac le. Already at MRT. :\ So I just went to Mac with Rachel. Then we talked for a while and ate a lot of fries. XD I'll grow fatter soon. Hahaha... BUT IT'S FOOD! AND AFTER EXAMS! SO LET THE FATTENING OF REBECCA BEGIN!!! ((: Hahha.. Then came home. Then lalalala and now here I am. X] Didja miss me?
So. Rude awakening: MUGGING SUCKS AND MATHS SHOULD NEVER HAVE BEEN MADE A SUBJECT. E.O.S.
Have to go out now. ;D Maybe Mama getting me new phone!! MAYBE. LOL.
YOURS TILL MOTHERS AREN'T NAGGERS!!
"Trust is more fragile than Tofu." - Rachel.
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Sunday, May 9, 2010 ( 8:55 PM )
"Do you ever put your arms out and just spin and spin and spin? Well, that's what love is like. Everything inside of you tells you to stop before you fall, but you just keep going on on."
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( 7:15 PM )
I hate the fact that we're supposed to be more mature as we grow older, I mean, what kind of shit is that?! It's like saying as you shit more you should weigh less. Zzz... I mean that's kind of true lar but you can't lose like what, 10kg from shitting right?! Wth sia... I want to enjoy my youth can?! SHEESH. Suckahs lar.... Keep pinning expectations on us and keep pushing us to meet it. Like we got nothing else better to do issit?! Zzz...
YOURS TILL LIFE IS PERFECT!!
Hypocrite.
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( 6:48 PM )
That's me in a few years' time. XD Awesome hor? Found this on someone's mixpod profile. ((:
Today was cool. XD Firstly, I'm gonna quote a part of the song the AG kids choir sang just now, for Mother's Day that I find REALLY meaningful.
Love is the answer
Love will find a way
When we love one another
It's a brighter day
So meaningful right?! XD I know!! Haha.. Yeah just wanted to say that and a shoutout to all mothers in the world:
To my own mother:
I LOVE YOU!! And I'm sorry for all the hurt and pain I've caused you throughout my entire life. I just hope that I'll learn to express my love to you in better ways and I'll try and be the daughter you've always wanted me to be. I'll try and make you proud, so that you can finally tell others,"That's my daughter." I hope this Mother's Day will be the BEST yet and I just wanna say that I REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU!!!
YOURS TILL CHOCOLATE DOESN'T MAKE ME GO GAGA!!
Oh, how can I repay?
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Saturday, May 8, 2010 ( 10:31 PM )
I feel sad. For no apparent reason. :| Actually got reason lar but... Yeah. I just don't feel like saying. :8 Let's just say something happened that made me forget how to trust again. Everyone's emo-ing nowadays. ._. I lost my wings of hope book. :8 Goes to show how irresponsible I am. Listening to Man Chun's playlist right now. Not bad. :) I like the first song. Sorry I didn't post about yesterday. Was just too tired. Hahah.. Kay. I'll post about the fragments I remember about yesterday. Don't forget to remember me.
SCIENCE. WAS. HORRID. I mean, seriously, it was THAT BAD. Firstly, I don't like Mr Tang. Personal issues lar. Hahah.. I think most of you know why. :8 Not only that, I don't understand A WORD Mr Tang said. ._. Then during the lesson I was totally distracted by 3 mosquito bites on my legs. Damn shit lor! Mosquitos are bothersome creatures with nothing else to do. Yeah anyways, yeah. MR TANG SUCKS!! Zzz... I don't want to infest my blog with too much of him so MOVING ON! Even when it's not, I tell her everything's alright.
English was taken over by Miss Lin so we ended up with two periods of Maths. I don't really like Maths but oh well, I only have to suffer schooling for about... 7+ more years? Hahah... Just get it over and done with. :D Maths was okay lar, but I didn't exactly finish the VS Papers so.. Yeah. Never tio scolding though. :) Thankfully. Wait and see.
RECESS!! Um.. Can't remember what happened then. STML mah! Hahha... Anyways yeah, all I remember is... Eating? =.='' Whatya want from me?
PW was taken over by DNT. But I still didn't finish my product then. So had to stay back to finish it up. Me and my pathetic last minutes efforts. ._. Forgot what I did during 'DNT' lesson. Ps. Heh. :) 'Cos I ain't giving up on love.
Music was next. More MTV making. Changed my song to Whatya Want From Me by Adam Lambert. :D That guy is awesome I tell you! And kinda cute. :8 Too bad he's gay. ): Hahah... Time For Miracles the beginning damn nice. XD Never judge a book by it's cover.
Literature... Okay lar.... Left the music room with more knowledge, as always. Need to go soon. Mama's nagging. :X Yeah then Bryan saved me from Pissdom because he sat beside me so Joel couldn't. XD THANKS BRYAN!! I OWE YOU ONE!! Fly by the seat of your pants.
Straight after Lit Jolene, Winnie, Janessa, Rachel and I rushed to DNT room 'cos I had Maths SSP after that and I had a feeling it was going to end late. I was right. We ended at around 4 plus. ._. Late right? Start at 2.30 somemore. :8 EH ZAVENUE GOT PROM SPECIAL! LOL. But all the prom dresses Zcarded. ): RETARDED. Yeah then during SSP Ikhmah and Bin Xun were awesome. XP They kept entertaining my stupid questions and they were SUPA patient with me. ((: OWE YOU GUYS LOTS!! Hahah... Then Ikhmah and Cherie got super high and that freaked me out. O.O I mean seriously, I had goosebumps. And not 'cos of THAT. Heh. Yeah then I had a nice talk with Ikhmah and I learnt more stuff. :D THANKS IKHMAH FOR BEING THERE FOR ME AND HELPING ME OUT!! Oh and Ikhmah offered to help me with Science, 'cos during SSP I was complaining about Mr Tang and completely dissing him. Miss Lin heard me. :X Don't think she'll tell him though... THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH IKHMAH!! XD There's always a rainbow after a storm.
OMG to DNT. It was.. Damn cham lar. But thank goodness Ozy and Mr Andy and Quenton and Winnie and Janessa and Charlotte and Bin Xun and Chang Jie and Sheng Rong and Rebekah and Bryan were there. Most of the people I just listed entertained me. XD AWESOME I TELL YOU!! Hahah... Esp. Charlotte and Rebekah!! They're priceless!! Hahah!! If it weren't for Mr Andy and Ozy though, I doubt I would have finished. Heh. :)) Chang Jie and Ozy are damn kind. Hahah.. Stood for like 1+ hours straight. My legs felt like collasping after that.... :X Love doesn't have a number.
When I finally finished, walked to MRT with Rebekah, Charlotte and Quenton and talked about random stuff. Then at the Sengkang station I realized Miss Yeo, from EFPS the skipping one, was in the same train. Then I was like OMG OMG OMG and didn't dare show my face. :X But I think she saw me... :8 Just my luck I guess... Then right, just as I was turning a corner at Punggol on the way home guess who I saw? XD GUESS GUESS GUESS!! X] I SAW ISABEL!!!!!!! WITH HER NCHS FRIEND!!!! And then Isabel was like, "Man man zou, later when I send off my friend le I run after you." Then I was like "I very tired le, I just had to stand for 2 hours straight [exaggerated] so I'm freaking tired! My legs want to die le leh!!" then she was like, "Just man man zou! I'll catch up with you de! Just, keep to the left side." LOL. She's awesome. ;D But in the end she didn't catch up, even though I was practically CRAWLING on the floor. Hehe.. X] Once bitten twice shy.
I need to read more books. My English standard is PIIIUUUUU, going down; NOT A GOOD THING. English IS my best subject, after all. OH OH OH! AND! I realized a similarity between the two Js. ;D They both like to wear colourful slippers. ^^ And by colourful I mean like one red one blue slipper. Hahah... TOO CUTE! :D OMG. I don't even know why I find that cute... :8 Eh wah lan leh... The freebies I miss on Zwinky are always the good one sia... Wth.. Too bad they don't give away hairstyles... ._. The new salon all need ZCard one. Somemore all damn ex. Zzz... Wasting my life away.
______ is DAMN pampered sia. Can't stand it le. Zzz... I mean, SERIOUSLY, MAN UP!! Then you really arh.... ARGH. Cannot stand you like that can?! On our way back down to Earth.
YOURS TILL CRACKED.COM AIN'T HILARIOUS!!
Money can't buy love.
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Thursday, May 6, 2010 ( 11:22 PM )
I wanna watch NCIS. Stupid Photobucket.. It was one of my favourite pics!! :8 Chupacabra. That's a cool word. :D Don't know what it means though. LOL. Oh. The show says it's some random... Creature? Yeah... Which... Ai yah. I don't know lar. Who cares.. I'm not in the best of moods nowadays... Sorry if I keep saying this but yeah. I'm kinda on the edge... Lots of things are happening lar. Not necessarily good stuff. I think I'm the only person who hasn't started studying yet. ._. I'm gonna die~~ Primary school questions nowadays are getting more and more nonsensical. :8 They don't make sense sometimes one lor!! Plurk's getting sian... But I don't want my karma to drop... Haiyah. Mother's day coming hor!! Gonna finish my card finishing soon!! :)) Still deciding on what to buy for Mama. ART SUCKS. Stayed back after school again today, this time for Art. :8 Sucks lor. Damn sian. Not really in the mood to blog anymore. So bye.
YOURS TILL I'M NO LONGER A GLUTTON!!
No one said life would be fair and easy, they only said the results would be worth it.
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Wednesday, May 5, 2010 ( 6:25 PM )
I think I know why I still hold on to that hope, that foolish and insolent hope. It's 'cos I saw a part of you that no one has seen before and I am praying, hoping and wishing that I can see that side of you again, that you would shed that mask you're wearing and show the world the real you.
I'm sorry Chee Keong... And Bryan... :8 I'm just not in the best of moods nowadays... :\ I'm gonna make it up to you guys soon. Nothing much to say today. Just that my legs are aching like shit and I'm freaking disappointed in myself. ): Okay. I'm gonna update later if I have the time.
YOURS TILL I'M NOT THE LAST MINUTE TYPE!!
And I just can't help but keep replaying our song over and over again.
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Tuesday, May 4, 2010 ( 10:17 PM )
Edward shared this with me, in response to my previous post. :)) It's damn awesome lor the video!! I seriously think Man Chun should watch it. XD It means a lot to me. I hope all of you who come by will watch this!! ^^
YOURS TILL SIN EXISTS NO MORE!!
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Monday, May 3, 2010 ( 9:10 PM )
Why must there be evil in this world? Why? Why must people go through so much pain and suffering? Why why why? Why must some people be so bitchy and cause other people to suffer? Why must some people be born with 'better' lives than others while others be provided with so little?! *sigh* I guess it's all in the will of God, and we must trust God, for He has plans for us, and they would never harm us. *sigh* I wanna be like Job. I'll have to try a lot harder then. Hesh.
YOURS TILL EATING ISN'T FULFILLING!!
Tattoo your name across my heart.
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( 6:07 PM )
What do you want from me? Jie was right. :8 Adam Lambert is awesome. Hahha... And the song "Down To Earth" by Justin Bieber is damn meaningful. :)) Expectations... We always have to live up to them. But in the end, most of the time, we find ourselves disappointed. For me, I feel that the only way to avoid disappointment is to not have expectations. I like my new playlist. :)) Watching Suite Life on Deck now. Hahah... ROFLMFAO just now. Hahah... Gonna go now. :8 Chiong lit.
YOURS TILL COMEDY AIN'T FUNNY!!
Would you just take a step back and look at the damage you've caused?!
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Sunday, May 2, 2010 ( 8:13 PM )
Aww... So sweet... This goes out to all my friends. XD
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( 7:00 PM )
I suddenly wanna eat candy floss. :| CHURCH. CHURCH. CHURCH. OMG. IT. WAS. SO. ARGH. I thought.... ARGHHH... I feel like that time... LAEHHHHH!! PRFFFF. DAMMIT. I'm going crazy. I thought... I thought if I didn't see him I'd feel better... But instead... :\ I feel like a rebeccazillion times worse. :| OMG. I feel like slapping myself. Then Sarah invited two more people from her school to church. One of them [Jayden] is cute. OMG WHAT AM I SAYING. ARGH. I WANNA SMACK MYSELF. BUT. I guess there were upsides too? YiJun's teaching today was cool and really got me thinking... But part of me was wondering about him... :| PRFFFFF. Then we had 'water' games. I brought my extra clothes for nothing sia. ._. But the girls were all congratulating me for stuffing like 7 olives in my mouth. :\ I tell you, 7 olives are enough to last me a lifetime. I still taste it in my mouth. ._. I promise I'll never torture myself like that EVER AGAIN. KAHPUI. I wonder why some people think they taste nice. :| I think they have something wrong with their taste buds. No offence lar. Coughing like shit now. Heh. I'm so sorry God. ): I didn't pay attention during sermon today... :X Forgive me Lord... D: I want to thank those people who've stood by and heard me when I constantly babble my shit: Rachel, XinYi, Manisha, Nicci, Valerie, Rebekah, Farizah, Alecia, Isabel, Ikhmah, Winnie, Jing Hui, Jie, LeYun... Thank you so so much. And for those people who've just quietly supported me, thank you. :))
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEON, AND THIS IS YOUR LATE BIRTHDAY WISH CHARLOTTE: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! ^^
YOURS TILL CANDY FLOSS AIN'T FLOSSY!!
"Obedience is far better than sacrifice." 1 Samuel 15:22
